New Beginnings.

Posted: January 2, 2013 in Uncategorized
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I love new beginnings.  So many people look forward to a new year to “start over”.  Personally, I look forward to every DAY.  Because every day is a chance to begin again.  I’ve said that so many times to my son, to friends, co-workers, etc.  For some reason, when we fail or dissapoint ourselves or others, we tend to get an attitude that we will never change.  And that’s so not true.  We can change, it just takes practice – and will-power!

I actually changed a lot of things in 2012, and one of them is that I listen almost exclusively to christian radio.  Every morning when I wake up, I crank up Klove.  Every day on the way back and forth to work – KLove.  And I’ve noticed a huge difference in the way I feel throughout the day by starting each day with such uplifting music.

For 2013, I plan to continue on my journey and be a better person – the kind of person that God wants me to be.  I’m not sure where my path will lead, but I do know that I control a lot of it by the choices I make.  And if one day, I make a bad choice – I know that every day is a new chance to begin again!

The Thoughts We Think

Posted: December 30, 2012 in Faith
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I woke up with a major headache this morning.  My bf says it’s from thinking too much, which is a realistic possibility.  At any rate, I was not singing along as normal at church this morning – it just hurt too much.  So, I decided to close my eyes and imagine what it would be like in heaven.  I pictured a bright white light all around me… full of warmth, like the sun I love so much in the summer.  Yes!  That would be so awesome!  My next thought of what it would be like in heaven was….”jeans that fit.”  lol.  Seriously. That was my immediate next thought of what it would feel like in heaven.  Ohhh to have jeans that fit – wouldn’t that be heavenly!

After that thought, I couldn’t concentrate on anything else “heavenly”.  I was a bit appalled at of all the things I could have thought about, it would be the comfort of pajama pants or some other “non-buttoning” apparel.  Clearly I was not as focused as I should have been.  So, I decided I’d try that again after I was home, in comfortable clothes, so I would not be distracted again.  🙂

I’ll let you know how it goes.

Hung Over

Posted: December 26, 2012 in Uncategorized

Not from alcohol!  But from just too much emotion.  This was the first Christmas in 16 years without my son.  He’s at a private school in another state, which I’m happy about because he is doing well and learning a lot.  But, wow, what an emotional day.  Every time I started to feel sorry for myself I remembered “the reason for the season”, which is Jesus of course!  So, all day was a roller coaster ride of emotions. Down, missing my son…Up remembering Jesus came to save us.  And today…I just feel…well, hung over!

Having said that, I’m just so thankful that I have a relationship with Jesus and I just couldn’t imagine getting through missing my son without Him.  I’m so thankful to have that perspective.

 

Be Happy!

Posted: December 13, 2012 in Uncategorized
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Every day you have a choice to be happy.  Most days, for me it’s easy!  Some days though…some days….are not so easy.  Anxiety, worry, stress, etc can take over.  And WOW can those feelings be powerful.  But you know when those feelings start to overpower you, you need to immediately go to God.  Give your worries to Him.  Don’t be anxious about anything – just as the bible says.

Some days this is a battle for me, I admit it.  But it’s one I’m bound to win because God wants me to.  So, today, I’m choosing to be happy!  To be soooo happy that when others look at me, they become happy too.  Because God wants His light to shine through us.  Be Happy!

Begin with the end in mind.

Posted: December 10, 2012 in Faith
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The other day as I was walking in to a building with my son, he said randomly, “would you have ever thought at my age that you’d end up being a christian leading your own women’s ministry?”  He is 16.

Talk about “deer in the headlights”…no doubt that was what I looked like.  A million thoughts (and some  horrors as I remember how I lived at 16!) went throught my mind.  But I knew I only had a few seconds before his curious mind went on to another subject, so I answered him quickly and honestly, “no way!” I said.  “But I’m sure glad I ended up here.”

And sure enough, that was the end of that conversation as he moved on to something else.  I’m not sure where he was going with that question, or what his mind was thinking when he asked it.  I am overjoyed that he is even thinking about “ending up” somewhere and I hope he thinks being a christian is a good place to be.

Beginning with the end in mind is a great strategy for life!  And my job is to keep pointing him in the right direction.

 

Jesus Eyes.

Posted: November 28, 2012 in Uncategorized

A few years ago I read a book by Karen Kingsbury, called Divine.  The part of that book that really spoke to me was when one of the main characters referred to people with faith as having “Jesus eyes.”  Here’s an excerpt:

“There’s something different in the eyes of people with faith. I can see it, but I can’t figure out what it is. You called it Jesus eyes.” Nigel smiled. “It’s the Holy Spirit. When people give their lives to Christ, He gives them His Spirit. It breathes from the center of the soul, giving life to the heart and shining bright through the eyes of believers.”

I remember thinking to myself, WOW, how amazing it would be to have Jesus eyes!  I’ve thought about it on and off; especially when I see people with those “eyes.”  But it never became more clear than the other night when I was washing my face before bed. When I looked up in the mirror after drying my face, I thought to myself, “hmmmm you look….different….something about my eyes…”  I studied for a minute..looked this way and that and then….it hit me.  I have Jesus Eyes.  “I” have Jesus eyes!

I can’t explain to you in words, really, the experience I had, but it was amazing.  I hope to continue to see “Jesus eyes” every time I look in the mirror, and more importantly, I hope others see it too!

We are not alone.

Posted: November 19, 2012 in Uncategorized
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Friday I was having a really bad day.  Was home with the flu and got a message that my son was in trouble at school, again.  Sigh.  I was pretty upset to say the least.  I cried.  Then cried some more. Then prayed, then prayed some more.  Then I got a little…ummm….angry.  Angry because I have been praying and praying for circumstances to change for YEARS.  I’ve been doing “all the right things”, walking as straight of a line as I can and there I was again.  In the same circumstance as I had been years before.  I cried out to God “seriously God, what is up with all this?”  I said “if you are trying to give me a message, clearly I am not hearing it.  Can you help me out?  I mean, really, send me an email or something!”

Two heartbeats later, my phone rang.  It was Klove radio.  Asking me if I needed prayers that day.  KLove Radio.  A national radio station called me out of the thousands of listeners to ask me if I needed prayers seconds after I asked God to send me a message.  Seconds.  Wow.  I can’t make this stuff up!  I cried to the sweet lady who called me.  I told her that I was just in prayer asking God for help, asking him to let me know that He hears me and then this phone call happened.  This lady didn’t seem surprised at all.  She said, “I never know who I’m going to to call each day, but I do know that God wants you to know that you are not alone.”

If I didn’t know that before, I certainly do now! Thanks for the direct message Lord! 🙂